Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Happy Raya Everyone!


Thank God for allowing me to see them another year. :)

Sunday, August 28, 2011

PATHETIC ENOUGH

This is my blog. I don't need you to approve my shit.

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Dear Sha,

Nobody must really know the truth inside,
But what makes all the sadness worthwhile?
Heads Up!

From,
Conscious Mind

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Hari Bangang Sedunia

Selasa 23/8/2011

4.30pm! Balik-balik. Tangan pegang biskut raya bagai menuju ke stesen LRT KLCC. Sejak tinggal di kota tak-se-metropolitan sangat ni aku lagi prefer to travel by train rather than getting stuck in traffic yang boleh buat muka aku kerut kecut sampai orang lain selalu ingat aku 26 27 padahal aku baru jek 23 wei. Benci nak mampus.


Ok sampai LRT ticket vending machine tu macam biase kene la que. Aku tak suke que kat counter sebab akan membuat aku berkerut lagi kalau pekerja counter tu lembab. So untuk mengurangkan proses penuan adalah lebih afdal aku deal with machine.

Okay tibe turn aku. Aku tengok screen tekan Setiawangsa. Total: RM1.60. Aku masuk coins dengan wang kertas satu ringgit dengan cepat harap-harap machine tu pun keluarkan ticket dengan cepat. Tapi eh apsal tak keluar-keluar ticket. Ok tunggu tak keluar lagi aku tekan cancle nak pergi ke another vending machine kat sebelah. Tapi apsal machine ni tak pulangkan duit aku. Aku dah macam blur orang belakang pun blur tengok aku. Ish lantak la nasib baik RM1.60. Aku nak cepat.

Aku pun pergi ke que
sebelah. Keluarkan RM1.60. Tunggu-tunggu sampai turn aku. Aku pun semangat nak masuk duit tu kat vending machine. Mase nak masuk coins tu aku baru sedar tangan kiri aku pegang ticket LRT which means aku memang dah dapat ticket from the first vending machine tadi. Patut la dia tak pulangkan duit aku. -___________________-". Muke aku bengang semacam. Nak elak kerut. Tambah lagi 20x kerut. Bodoh punye Sha.

Aku balik aku pikir balik apsal aku macam tu. Kadang-kadang aku tak sedar ape aku buat. Kadang-kadang orang call aku aku tak sedar aku cakap ape. Kadang-kadang aku text aku tak sedar aku text ape. Kadang-kadang aku masuk kereta terus tertekan minyak tak pikir ape. Tekejut sekejab. Adekah aku mengalami schizophrenia. CHOOOI. Umur baru 23 kak, anak pun belum ade lagi.



Ok nak share a few gambars of my parents perasan-pegantin-baru looks.
*They have nothing to do with the post above.





Ok meet my parents, Nordihayana Tey & Rosni Hamdan. Aku lupe anniversary dorg bile. Yang aku tahu dorg dah kahwin 24 tahun dan mempunyai 3 orang anak perempuan dan 3 orang anak lelaki yang comel-comel. Haha Rase loser kejab as the eldest among six. Dorg kawin muda dalam 19 & 2o gitu. Dorg loving tapi family kiteorg tak reti express/show our affections. I don't hug or kiss them but one thing's for sure - kau jentik family aku, kau mati.






Sunday, August 21, 2011

Singling-gling-gling

Hello, happy Mournday everyone! Chill lah, We're approaching the end of Ramadhan already. Time flies, doesn't it? So how's your Raya preparation? I hope all goes well. This is the most exciting week I've been waiting for, Nah, it's not what you think, I don't feel like Raya-ing this year. I sorta realized that the great feelings of anticipation before Raya was diminished bit by bit as I grew older. I don't know why. Maybe it's just me. I'd rather choose bras over baju raya, can you imagine? I do feel bad, yes but I can't lie to myself or anyone else. Or else I will be faking myself and eating kuih raya all day long to keep myself occupied. Haha. I hate pretending that I care when I don't so please stop pushing me. Blame my immaturity/disability at the time of not knowing how to adapt myself to different circumstances in order to respond effectively to the needs of others. Hell, I ain't born to please anyone here. I choose who to love, What I want, Where I go. Haha yeah I know sometimes I sound like a douchebag to you, ade aku kisah? Akuhidupsorang-sorangbayarbillssorang-sorangadeplakkaukisah? SO STFU.

Eh lupa nak citer apsal excited, since kerja ni hari yang paling aku tunggu adalah hari bayaran! Yes. Nasib tempat keje aku bayar gaji awal macam ala-ala government sangat you oll.

Nah inilah all payments that need to be settled every month:

1. Room rental: RM400.00
2. Car loan: RM586.00
3. Petrol: Roughly RM150.00
4. LRT Car Park: Roughly RM60.00
5. LRT: Roughly RM 51.20
6. Food: Roughly M400.00


TOTAL : RM1,647.20! KA-CHING $$!
All the above items are being calculated on a monthly basis. Titik noktah.
So kau paham macam mane sengkek-nye aku towards month end. Nasib la company ni cover my phonebills RM200 monthly plus I've got the so-called privilege that allows me to claim certain expenses. Shhhhh, enough already, I think I'm revealing to much of my KE-SENGKEK-KAN here.



So many things can happen in the blink of an eye kan.*tibe-tibe* Aku malas nak tulis lagi. Citer lain hari. Tata.

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Ramotionality

Rational: What's the point of getting into a relationship if you're not ready.
Emotional: It feels so good loving somebody and that somebody loves you back.

Rational: I'm not a commitment-phobe yet I don't think I will be able to commit a long-term relationship. The feelings of romance and passion will eventually evaporate.
Emotional:
Loneliness can kill you. You'll die alone.

Rational: The ultimate purpose of dating is to find a life partner right? What's the rush? You ain't even close to being old enough to play a mature rated game, to find a perfect promise ring.
Emotional:Dating gives me a euphoric feeling of being admired. I love the way he treated me. I love his smile, his lame jokes, his hair, his everything.

Rational: He's not the one. I know what I want and my instinct couldn't be wrong.
Emotional: Nobody's perfect. We're imperfectly perfect together. Or at least I've someone to hold on.

Rational: Being single is sexy. You've brains in your head, you have feet in your shoes, you can steer any direction you choose, you do what you like and you don't need anyone to rectify your existence.
You are on your own.
Emotional:
I give top-notch priority to my partner. I love making him happy without considering my own. I treat him like a king and expect him to treat me as his queen. We share because we care. We devoted ourselves to each other, by hoping we both will be forever bonded in love.